Disguised

Can the same face disgust you that was beautiful a minute ago??

I look at him, nothing but contempt in my eyes...

I feel sick just staring at him...

 His face that used to be so pure and serene, almost like a child, grosses me out....

And he can see that...

He begs me to look at him the way I used to...

I am the only one who ever loved him and now I know why...

He is a Beast behind the face of an Angel.

Some Words By Shahid Ali

At a certain point I lost track of you.

You needed me.You needed to perfect me.

In my absence you polished me into the Enemy.

Our history gets in the way of my memory.

I am everything you lost. Your perfect enemy.

Your memory gets in the way of my memory.

There is nothing to forgive.You won't forgive me.

I hid my pain even from myself.

I revealed my pain only to myself.

There is nothing to forgive.You won't forgive me.

If only you could be mine,

 I would show you what it is that you mean to me.

Waiting For You To Come Back

"Distance is to love what wind is to fire, Extinguishes the small, but ignites the great"

You are so far away from me,

yet i can hear your voice across the sea...

No number of miles can keep us apart,

because you're here with me, you live in my heart...

Every time I reach out to touch your face,

your thoughts envelope me into an embrace...

I am glad i kept a little piece of you,

in my heart, for the times i felt blue...

I think about you and start to laugh,

it's not you just the jokes you cracked...

Every time a light breeze blows somewhere near,

i can feel your fingers running through my hair...

I soak my eyes in the sun, wishing for the days to run...

so that i can be in your arms, and be flattered by all your charms...

I don't need any flashy gifts,

just for you to be there when the nights shift....

Gratitude

Guilt stricken...she never asked for luxuries....lying in her king sized bed, Ariana thanked her stars every night...For she had everything she could ever desire and more...her whole life she was humbled by her father's gestures...designer wardrobe for her 16th b'day...personal car for her 18th...her own flat for her 21st...

But often she would think back to the time when she was a spoiled lil brat..."papa I want a pony"..."dad, we gotta go to New York for the holidays"....how did life take such a turn?...then she would remember the fateful day, when an old dusty file in her father's office caught her eye...negligence and curiosity was all it took...

Saini's home for children

Baby girl

3 months old

Adopted by Mr and Mrs kapoor.

Falling in love

Love comes definitively...you either are or aren't...you can't sort of be in luv...there is no middle ground...and the slightest lil thing can make you realize it...

Her lopsided smile.. the twinkle in his eyes.. The blush on her cheeks... the simple way he asks u "khana kha liya?"... The way she messes up your hair... When he calls you in the middle of the night just to get your opinion on something totally ridiculous... The way she remembers every Lil detail you have ever told her about your life... The way he whispers softly in your ear... The way she breaks eye contact when she's embarrassed...
The way he winks at you while you both share your own private joke.. The way she tucks the few strands of hair falling across her face, behind her ear... When you find him staring at you and he shyly looks away... The way she makes the cutest face possible when angry... The way she holds your hand tightly when you get a bad news... The way his embrace completely envelops you and you have to come up for breath...  The passion with which she talks about her future... The Lil pangs of jealously he feels when you talk abt another guy... The way she tries to bond with your parents...

It can be anything... a moment, an expression, an emotion or a gesture... but it will be enough to make you know for sure... 

This Manupulative World Is A.....B!tch

Reality Check

Bruised, battered, missing her dupatta, with only one chappal on her feet and tears streaming down her face, Reena somehow made her way to the police station, put on a brave face, gave a detailed description of her culprits to the police officer and managed to call home.

But standing in the only place that was supposed to make her feel safe, she felt more terrified than she had in front of those scoundrels.

And she was forced to wonder, who was the bigger monster?...the bastards who raped her and left her on the side of the road to die...or the ones who were supposed to protect her yet couldn't keep lust out of their eyes as they scanned her from head to toe, looking straight through her torn clothes...or the ones who gave her birth but were too ashamed to even call her Daughter...

Daddy's lil girl...

safeguarded her whole life...

caged by her father's luv...

alas, found her wings...

in the love of her guardian angel...

His eyes are at the same level as your own... 
His nose is freckled and turns upwards slightly....

When he smiles he does so shyly, exposing teeth with gaps between...

His eyes are green and when he looks straight at you they seem to shimmer....

They seem gentle, almost afraid...like a gazelle's...

And you look away...

You let his eyes run over you a little....and then you come back to find them, Slightly  Breathless....

Memories

Abdul Crunched numbers...

being an accountant at the bank and in luv with his job...

he never took time out for life...

and now at 69 yrs of age, 
he regretted not having found someone to share his golden yrs with....

only one memory gave him joy...

the summer of '53...

when little 8 yr old Samaira kissed him on the cheek for the very first time...

he had heard people say that you can't find true luv at a young age...

But he had never known any luv purer than what he had felt at that precise moment...

Goodbye

 

I never knew how much a single word could hurt you...

"Goodbye" he said, and walked away...never turning to look back at me...

Does 7 yrs of commitment mean nothing at all ? All the love, well what love, if it could evaporate in thin air...

I wonder what could she possibly offer him which I hadn't already...he tossed me away like a used old rug, taking up unnecessary space...

People warned me that he was incapable of love...But being the naive girl I was...I believed I was the one, meant to change him...that our story would somehow be different than the rest...

But now when I look him in the eyes...all I see is a stranger....how can someone so distant bring you so much pain...

Goodbye, such a simple word yet it is logged like a bullet in my chest...bringing me, Never Ending Agony...

A Bond Like No Other

YOU were there to catch me before my every fall

YOU told me i was beautiful, when i wasn't sure i was pretty enough

YOU said your daughter was the best, when i only landed the third place

YOU told me you were proud of me, when i hit rock bottom

YOU told me i was your little princess, when i felt nothing more than ordinary

YOU helped me back on my feet, when i fell hard on my knees

YOU were there to hold me, fight for me and even wipe my tears, whenever i needed you to

YOU are and always will be my superhero

LOVE YOU DAD.

"You are my favorite drug", he used to say, with an insane smile on his face and eyes glinting with unmistakable passion.

And he did get addicted.

"Not to her but her presence", he told the cops with the same smile,

when they found her lifeless body next to him in bed.

Was I Invisible?

"Not all friendships are meant to be, Maybe this was one of them"

No one seems to remember me....

was i invisible or just living in my own world.....

because i can account every intricate detail about the time i spent with these people....

our laughs,our joys and even our goodbyes...

i felt like i had finally found my place...

that our friendship would last for an eternity...

but I guess NOTHING LASTS FOREVER...

because now they deny to have ever met me....

it seems that while i was trying to preserve every little memory....

revisiting them again and again just to keep them fresh...

they erased me from theirs with rather ease...

like i had never existed....

it all feels like smoke and mirrors...

 a single flash and my whole life vanished...

 

Am I really the only one who knows me?